Meeting Ney

The sound haunts my Soul
Beckoning me to dissolve in the Tone
Never before have I picked up a musical instrument and not been able to play SOMEthing
gratefully, not so with this one.
This one requires the kiss
that can come from no where but God breath
Again and again 'i' dissolve
not diminish
not expand
Be
Being Breath
Breathing
and every so often
there comes a Tone
that is fresh
and True

Mind immediately examines how did that happen?!
Mimic the body,
the breath,
and nothing
but air escaping from pursed lips
close my eyes
allow the softest kiss
to arise from these lips
releasing all tension
Allow this devotion
to Be the Breath
Being
Breathing
Praying
May this Form
Allow Breath to sing
through the simplicity of Ney
May this Devotion purify
in the simplicity of a Kiss.
And be Kissed in Return.

Unfolding NOW......

For years
The Journey
was focal point
of this life.

All enthusiasm
laid claim
to Healing
this that appeared broken.

Now.
Nothing is broken
Never was.

Only the View
was skewed.
Limited by limits.

Now.
All is Welcomed.
No Matter what.

No Journey.
Now Journey.
Now...
and Now....

and THIS Now......

Vibrational Energetics

As people continue to come to the Table, I am being guided more and more to assist their connecting with their True Nature via the physical Body. Having been trained in many forms of Bodywork, and in many more forms of Energy Work, there is an integration of all of it and a growth of something from that union. I have been instructed to call this work Vibrational Energetics.
With multiple components, Vibrational Energetics meets the physical body initially via the nervous system, and upon meeting establishes a cooperative dialog in which vitality, wisdom, integration, and release occur concurrently with dynamic guidance, and education.
Powerful, painless, profound, and efficient, Vibrational Energetics can be provided easily, no need for tools, equipment, or disrobing. Comfortable, deeply relaxing, and energizing, Vibrational Energetics supports each person in learning how to support the Next Step.

This modality of support is a timely gift being offered to all who are interested. House Gatherings, private sessions, indoors or outdoors, all that is needed is a comfortable place to sit or lie down.

When interest arises, call or write to schedule your sessions.
THE MENU:
Private sessions (discounts for sponsoring multiple sessions in your home or office)
Group sessions
Individual and group trainings
Phone sessions
Distance sessions upon completion of module I

email, call for scheduling.

Strip away....

Strip away these unnecessary cloaks
Take away all that keeps me from You
No matter that I may scream and cry
it is only fear that keeps me
from rejoicing in this Divine Takeover

Take away these silly glasses
that I may Truly See
Weary as I am I bend to my Desire
to be your servant, your messenger

You are the Wind
Make me a Mast
Strip away the tears
the veils
the cloaks

Take this Fear
Take it NOW
and NOW
and NOW
it is of no Use Here

*******************
Physical belongings have become burdensome
Even if the future includes a home
what is kept now has nothing to do with NOW
So it goes, so it goes.
Leaping Off the Cliff
Again
into the arms of the Wind
Again

Peeling away the layers of 'stuff'
So many good ideas
So many talents in this form
I offer the talents in raw form
no longer harbouring supplies
Letting it all go
Releasing
Re-Leasing
This Moment has everything that is Needed.
SO Be It
and So it Is.

Simple.....

Taking this moment
to welcome Life
washing through this form
gently trans-forming this 'me'
to express and manifest
that which is True
and THAT alone
Surrendering to the Pulse of Now
Surrendering to ALL that Is
Gratitude abounds in every cell
Joyous Presence residing
Here
Alone
Only
All
Here
Wow!!
Yum!!!!

Who are You?

Stop trying.
Stop looking.
Stop thinking.
Stop.
In the whisper of 'Stop'
there You are.
Stop frequently enough
and You are with me
All Ways
Stop Frequently enough
and all the trying,
all the looking,
all the thinking
is washed over and
over again
with You.
No longer a 'me' trying,
No longer a 'me' looking,
No longer a 'me' thinking.
Only You.
No more trying.
Only You Looking.
Only You Thinking.
Only You.

Use Me.....

Use Me Dear Mother
Use me to bring Your Heart
Like a warm Blanket
wrapping Your Children
In Love unwavering.

Use Me Dear Father
Use Me to bring Your Heart
Like a Sunlit meadow
basking Your Children
In Love unwavering

Use Me Dear Life
Use Me to Be Your Heart
Love Everlasting
Washing All Children
In Love unwavering

Laying down all burdens
Moment after moment
I surrender this Shell
I evict my self
And Return Home
Take the Keys
Remodel this abode
in all fashion necessary
Love and Love Alone
is my LandLord

Wow.......

Yes.
Say 'Yes'.
Feel its vibration in your body.
Say 'Yes!' and breathe it in.
Say 'Yes' with all your Heart
And Listen to the Echo
ReSounding in every cell
Say 'Yes'.
Now say 'No'.
Feel it in your body.
Note the difference.
Say 'Yes'
Say 'Yes' again
and again
Everything that happens begins with 'Yes'
and the cornerstone of anything that will grow or continue
is 'Yes!'
Say 'Yes'
KNOW you are saying 'Yes'.
Know it with all your Heart
Say 'Yes'
What follows is not our business
For with 'Yes' all is Done.
Say 'Yes'.
Say 'Yes' to NOW.
Say 'Yes' to This Moment.
'Yes'
'Yes'
'YES'
'YES!!'
Give your Life a big 'Yes!'
And allow the Flow of 'YES!'
to Wash you clean of all the No's
Yes.
YES.
YES!

Just say 'Yes!'

Willing to F*@k up.....

You asked me for Gentle
It is a Fine place, 'gentle'
with many many faces.
Not all expressions 'match' in the moment.
Seeing that,
I have mined the territory
seeking UNDER standing
beneath the 'idea',
the word,
the cry for sweetness
in the face of vulnerable 'ouch'
in all its tone.

I would not have looked so deeply
had you not requested from
The midst of your Heart

And what I have found is a Love for you
so precious
and a sadness i have 'failed' to deliver accurately
something needed
and something so desired to be given
and under all of that I find
my willingness to 'goof'
and still remain with you
remain through it all
no matter how many times
I offer what i have
and its not a 'match'
I remain
For you
with You
in all my humanness
in all my g-dness
in all my wonder
of the matrix
of Deep Friendship
I remain
for You

Buffet of THIS.....

I'm singing Hallalujah
in a quiet sort of Way
This Precious Heart is pulsing
Unfolding a simple day.

All the compressed cooking
Has brought me to my knees
Praying to be taken
in whatever way would please (G-d).

The chorus of the song
has a punch line oh so funny
All the reaching OUT
brought me home to 'Sunny'!

Now, That I Am Here
Nothing seems to matter
The Old Way sheds a tear
Delusions all can shatter

For nothing is more important
than the presence of this NOW
and nothing else is cooking
but a Hallalulic NOW!!!!

Today, the Sun Shines......

Choice points of recognition
Come and go
Recognition remains
All Ways
This, This very 'stuff'
of which Life is made
IS allways and everywhere
Nothing to gain, or grasp
Or 'learn' from another
It is recognition
Decision (NOT from Mind)
And a shift
Reveals
There
Is
Nothing else to do, but
Realize what is HERE
Fully,
NOW.

chrysallis

I came to Your table
I drank Your wine
I feasted with pleasure
On all that was mine

You gave me permission
To carry You on
then I found myself dying
where I didn’t belong

I have prayed for Your guidance
I have listened with Heart
I have done all Your bidding
As best I could start

Now the doorway is plastered
With nail, wood, and stone
And I am dissolving
mind/body and bone

No matter the reason
No matter the cause
No choices remain
But to follow Your Laws

Though lasting Existence
Is all that is left
This final resistance
Is just before death

May we feast with great pleasure
Transforming all to what’s Real
May Love flow in full measure
So all may be healed

approaching the Unknown.....

Come face to face with the Unknown;
with fear,
with Light,
with fear,
with trust.
with determination,
with abandon,
with Fear,
with Hope.
With whatever there is,
Come to the Unknown.
no matter what.

If one has Love,
come with that,
if one has fear,
come with that.

The point is,
to come to the brink
the threshold
the edge, and over,
with whatever there is.
The point is; COME.

Anything short of coming to the Unknown is death;
either quick,
or slow.
Choose life
Come to the Unknown.
That which is most alive;
this Moment.
with everything you've got.

I am entering the threshold
with all that i have
taking out the trash
taking out the recycling
for its final re-use....

Offering the melting pot whatever resources
can be given over
the raw materials
to be used
for reconstruction of
nothingness.

Challenging to write
from the midst of it all.
Diving in.
Coming to the Portal
committed.
Coming with everything I've got;
Fear
Terror
commitment
commitment
dedication
resolve
Fear.

These are not my fears alone;
I bring the fears of my ancestral lineage.
Irish Heritage hell bent on survival.
Terror of annihilation.
Quantum Courage
The ultimate test for
Conscious Contact
Vibrational Energetics
test
test
one
two
three
test
test
test.............

for Life? or Death?

Obligation, responsibility, reputation............
Upon this question there is pondering,
do each of these 'concepts', 'practices', 'beliefs'
bring Life into form?
or hold Life with limits?

To whom or what are 'we' obligated? responsible?

Before answering quickly, examine what is the foundation of these 'precepts'.

NOW

I am breaking apart
into millions of pieces
snowflakes dissolving

L O N G Haul.....

Dredging the swamp for all the lowly creatures who fear the Light.
I have found many.
and they have found me.
In the thick of the cleansing clearing, I am.
human mind has so much resistance to the Light.
Though the terrors and the fears are constant
something in me Knows there is only This.
Committed to deeply anchor the Light
into the depths of the Swamp
I cast Sail for higher elevations
For a 24/7 Depth Charge
Spring Housecleaning
A finality of This
I Am.

a Beautiful Flow....

I am loving the wonder of Life unfolding without my interference.
Though conditioning often has a knee jerk reaction to conditions narrowly named by Mind, there is no longer the action that follows. The Easing is genereous. Wonderous magic of the simplicity of Life being, Being.

There is 'Place' for me to thrive in, from.
There is Space for this Form to be fully tended to; rest, nutrition, conscious community, deepening contemplation, creative expression through painting, music, writing, prayers, companioning with those who come to the door.

There is no single Beloved other than the One. And the ONe shows up in EveryOne! So all are the Beloved, and I too am included. And there is nothing here, HERE, BUT the One, the Beloved. Wow, how precious is that?

We are Quickening. Life is stepping up its pace in the Dance of Awakening, from Waltz to Tango, from HIp and Hop to the Whirling of the Dirvish! At the Core of it all is the Stillness, The Source, the Core. And in that there is All and Nothing, and Everything.

So here we are on the ride, this joyous fascinating ride of wonder at one of the most tremendously changing times of humanity. YEEEHAAA!! Giddy-up!!! Blessed Be. How may I be of Service?
ahh, yes, Be. Dare to Be. Dare to Show Up.
Here. Here. I Am.
Here.

InJoy,
Sunny

Keep it simple.....

Looking for a place to live. And to Live from.
A room with enough room. (12x12 or larger)
A place to keep extraneous stuff: backpacking gear, some tools, extra canvases, etc.
Room in the kitchen for Excalibur food drier, sprouting jars, and food processor (Raw cuisine).
drug and alcohol free. (me: clean and sober 24 years)
Conscious living... recycle, self respect, respect for others and the atmosphere in which we live.
a bit of soil to grow some food! YEA! Gardens!!!!
Welcoming. WellComing. Community. ComeUnity.
Blessings, many many blessings!

no place like hOMe.....

I have been given a gift of late; for the past 5 weeks living in a household of good folk who dont know of, or if they do, do not have an interest in living in Unity. ComeUnity. This one, me, gets caught by surprise at that fact. Like everyone else there is the underlying presumtion that others see the world as we do. So this has been a HUGE gift.

Fascinating to do this thorough research on the energetics of this kind of misalignment.
so now I am actively seeking hOMe with people who CARE about their home, their food, their relations with all of Life. Knowing on some level that there is Life in everything, which has due respect.

We need to grow our food. I love to garden.
Simplicity supports simplicity. I am vegetarian, moving toward raw.
Our living space reflects our consciousness, I am organized, and clean up after myself.
We effect each other, I make sure there is a roll of toilet paper available in the bathroom when I am done.
Deepening our relationship with Spirit; Higher Power, God, Source, Love is essential to our lives and our survival. I meditate everyday, and all of my activities are some form of prayer and/or meditation.
Expressing our connection to Existence via creativity is essential to our connection with all of life. I paint sacred portraits, write chants, and contemplative guitar music.
Tending to our home space invests our Hearts, I am happy to fix, repair, improve stuff around the house. It too is a prayer.
All beings are Life manifesting; I love children, animals, plants, rocks, and the air and rain.
Life is diverse. I dont expect others to do what I do, I do expect respect.
I prefer to listen, and I appreciate being listened to.

Just a peek at what I look for in hOMe.
Home sweet Home!

This precious Life.....

Long ago a friend made the comment to me,
"Planet Earth is for Slow Learners."
Hearing that, I finally felt as though I actually belonged here!

Blossoming within continues, a simple clarity. If Life is the Garden then this that is beginning to grow is more like the Asparagus plant rather than radish. Slow to germinate and slower to offer harvest. and yes, always well worth the wait!!

Most immediately there is Gratitude for all my Teachers who have tilled this Soil; each in their own way a very powerful transformative force, delivering the alchemical catalyst for Growth. Without the direct transmission, no-holds-barred, shoot-from-the-hip, profoundly Loving Guidance there would be no 'blog', no physical 'Sunny', and no Flow through this portal!
Gratitude barely comes close to the depth of indebtedness, credit, acknowledgment, and Heartfelt tears of Love.

The only thing that we as humans are called to 'do' is to turn our attention, our energy, our acknowledgment, our awareness to that which the Essence of who and what we are. The names are varied, and all applicable: Source, God, Higher Self, Allah, Buddha. The list could go on, but you get the point. It is not whether or not we are a 'this' or a 'that', it is that we turn ourselves fully to the 'this' or the 'that' !!!! Simple as that!!! or this!!!!!

Breathing.
This breath enters the physical body.
No mistake breath comes to the lungs
these receiving hands
that wrap around my Heart.
This breath, is G-d breathing,
Breathing this Body.
Breathing Life into Form
G-d BreathHands, these Lungs are.
Lungs receive the breath of G-d,
And Offer this Gift to Heart,
For Heart to Meet,
And receive G-d Breath.
This G-d Team; Lungs and Heart
Transforming G-d
into Life-Filled Blood
Pumped though this body
in the Rhythm of Life
Being
Breathed, and Breathing.
G-d Breath in,
Feeding and Fueling this body
With the Body of The Christ.
Apex of inhale,
All Old is handed back
Offered up to G-d
Fully Giving
For Giving
Forgiven on the Exhale.

And so the Dance truly begins
And continues.
The Divine Three Step,
For All Ways
For Ever.
Let the music begin,
this Drunkard shall dance on the tables
And Waltz through the Fields
Sipping on the Nectar
Drinking Freely from the Wineskins
Of G-d's Precious Christ.

Take me to the River.....

This next round of willingness to allow myself to come to Self is a voluntary melting of the dam of separation. Sitting, just sitting, no technique, no purpose, no intention. Just sitting for the simplicity of sitting. and immediately arises is the childlike wonder of Presence!
So many aspects of this Unfolding, it is difficult to formulate in a manner that may make any sense! Sense to whom? DO I wish to make sense to your Mind? No. I do not wish to make sense to your Mind. I wish to make sense to that in You that resonates with the All Inclusive Presence of Existence, Life Itself. Your Soul.
I live in the city.
I have tried to live in the city in the past but always found myself in some state of overwhelm.
Now, I live in the city. And thrive.
Is the thriving due to living in the city? because of the city? I dont think so.
The base of reference is so much broader that there is nothing to tip away from.
All of what is here is so clearly Life, Life manifesting. Thats it. Downright Joyfull! Are the circumstances in the particulars joyfull? No, they are everything; happy, sad, devious, loving, numb, expanded. Life. Manifesting. Life existing in the physical earthly plane.

While sitting this morning, the sensation of sitting on a river bank, tossing in pebbles of what is willing to be let go of. Then the question comes, why not throw it ALL in? and the River and I become one. Washing, churning, flooding, oozing, flowing, Flowing Flowing, and there is breath, and there is pulse, and there is Flow.
THe thought comes, 'oh, maybe I better get ready for work?' and it is recognized as the mind thinking. the River Flows. Then the surge of wash lifts and urges, "Time to Flow out into the world." And I KNOW its time to get ready for work!!! Trusting the guidance of this inner flow, this is what Gert told me about so many years ago, so many years ago she told me over and over and over again, "when its time to address something the way to address it will be right there IN you!'.
IN Gratitude.

Infinite trails of Infinite training......

Busking for God

You called me
Begged me to Sing
Extracted from me
Total Devotion to You
Fed only by Singing
Praise of Your Touch
Then You demanded
I burn away every Song
And forget it all
But the Devotion to You
And when the song arises
To stay with You
And You alone
No matter how inviting
The Harmonies of the song.

HA! The jokes on me!!!!

okay, so Planet Earth is for S L O W Learners.....
and the mind does ever go to sleep!
as evidenced by its constant activity and excitement last night, throughout the whole night. Knowing full well my intention was to get up early (which I did), and to 'catch' the mind before it got active, (which i didnt) it would wake me up,
"Now?" (12:45 am)
"How about NOW?" (2:23 am)
"ah NOW!!!!" (4:12 am)
and when the alarm went off,
"hhhm, no, I'm sleepy, gotta zzz resstzzzzz" (5:01am)
"UP! YOU!!!! NOW!!!!!! No regrets to day for breaking this agreement!!! UP!!!"

Funny thing, sitting in stillness, mind was still, and when it wasnt, it was not trouble.
Stillness,
sitting with all that Is
makes all that Is
Stillness.
No Matter What!!

What a trip it is to be Human.

Renewal of Dedication.....

This Full Moon I renew willingness, dedication, and faith.
The exercise given is to rise at 5 am every morning, before the mental body activates and sit in meditation fully giving over EVERYthing to God. Every thing. a prayer to cleanse this conduit, to free all the tangles big and small, to freshly wash the insides of this form; physical, mental, emotional, so Soul, Spirit, God can move freely.
Knowing how powerful it is to meditate with others, and living right now where I sit alone, I am working on a drawing for a painting/panel that is the rest of my circle; in meditation, washed in Light, full of Grace and Unity for my altar. Then as I sit and meditate there will be my circle in which I am but one of the One. One of the many, All of the One.

God has grabbed me again, claimed full refuge within this HeartSkin and taken over. Hallalujah!!!
Let this Tsunami of Inspiration rise and wash everything clean; once, and for All!!!

Warp and Weft.....

And so the web is woven
From Heart to Holy Heart
Threaded Love rejoicing
Light shuttled from the start
Releasing all resistance
to the inevitable Embrace
Finding unknown Freedom
Blessed with Simple Grace.

~ written 1/27/09

Grassroots Sprouting

As the United States Presidential campaign and election moves quickly toward Inauguration our role as members of this society also changes. The campaign coaxed us out of a long trance-like state, from the possibility to the probability of change and of Hope. Clearly stated at the polls, we embrace the possibility of again becoming a nation of compassion, intelligence, and proactive development. We, as a Nation, also embrace the possibility of each of us individually being changed for the better.

It is easy to say “Obama is great,” Obama is the change we need.” These statements are true. AND it is not Obama, the man that is the force within the change. It is the principles, beliefs, and energy that Obama embodies. Those very same principles, beliefs, and energies are in each of us as well. Whether or not we are aware of any of it within us, we continually are reminded of its existence when we see him, hear him, or even see or speak his name.


Our vote was the first step. Our next step, individually and collectively is to proactively consider participating in all the many ways of setting aside the habitual, familiar disheartened fear so well fed over the past nearly decade. It is an old pattern, well practiced, and valid in many respects. This kind of change is not easy, simple, nor quick. Yet it is the kind of change that is being called forth by the very fact of the election of new presidency. Our vote also cast a vote for the faith in our inner resources to step forth in a new way, a fresh way, a way seasoned with Hope and Possibility.

Always when something of value has entered our lives we have different emotions arise regarding its longevity and sustainability. The old habit is to immediately fear; to fear the loss of one whom has brought us out of trance, instilled the seeds of Hope, and opened our eyes and perhaps our hearts to the possibility of connection as family, community, and nation.

When the old ways of thinking rise, -perhaps being fearful for the safety of Obama- whether in our own minds or in conversations with others, let us stop and remember our vote, recall the Hope planted within us, the desire for fresh new ways, and turn that rising energy immediately to thoughts of goodness, prayer, supportive positive attitude In all ways regarding this incredible threshold on which we now stand.

Let’s help each other remember our vote; that is was a vote not for a man, but for a new way of life in which we can each actively welcome, participate, and embody.

One more crinkle Unfolded!!!

All the bustle and movement of this city is a constant reminder of the precious diversity of how the One, Unity, the Beloved manifests. The sounds, the activity, the compression of the atmosphere is all continual reminder of the very Presence of THAT which is in everything; call that God, Love, Source, The Beloved, The One. Call it what you wish, and know that in calling it, it comes!

Precious views of how the little mind, the personality, the Nefs, the Ego steps in front of the Light that is all of the Above (Love,Source, God, etc), causing a Shadow, and then saying,
"OOOOHH!! that's ME!!!!!"
Now, right NOW, there is HUGE support for experiencing beyond all senses the Presence of the very thing we all are wanting. The Presence of that which is available at all times, that is Within, in the Indweller, some say, The God-Light.
And to gently step from the view of the little mind smack dab into NOW of who/what You truly ARE!

Over and over again we are invited by the very events that take place in everyday life to see beyond the limited view of the small mind, expanded beyond the limitations of the physical body and the mind that is partnered with it. Every day the activities that reveal us to ourselves, that show how we view the world, how we think, and the ensuing feelings that arise in response (or reaction) to the thoughts reveal what is in us and ready to be released!!!!!
It's up, right? Fear, disappointment, anger, joy... all of these states reveal what is up in our small self right now. Each one has a quality that is formed by our thinking; whether its thinking we were trained to do from our upbringing (family, society, schooling, etc), or its what we have formed from our experiences as human. And because it is up, and not buried, this moment that it rises is a monet of willingness being expressed to let it continue its movement, up, up , and away! out! gone! released! Bye-bye!!!!!
If we step to a neutral posture when stuff comes up, allowing the base energy to move freely up and gone, we are not only released from the trap of that limited and skewed view, but we are also participating in freeing the energy that exists in everyone and everything. The release is not contained only in 'us'!!!! What a powerful way, simple, always available, to bring Peace Truly!!!!

Knowing this changes the perpsective of when the 'less than desireable-things-happen'; from contraction and fear to expansion/neutrality and support!!!

This totally transforms the concept of right/wrong;
'right' now can be measured by,
"Am I allowing the energy to move freely through without attaching my minds ideas or labels to it?"
OR
"am I naming this event, this feeling, this thought and contricting around it?"

This is so exciting!!!


try it out!
let me know how it goes!!

Many blessings on every moment of Life!
Sunny